soften

Hi friend,

I hope this note finds you well.

I find myself in an interesting place lately: deeply contemplative, and also aware in my body that shifts are occurring in the very fabric of my life. Which has brought about some emotions and lots of conversations in my head, and I’ve been running to my laptop every thirty seconds to write something down as it alchemizes from worry to remembrance. It’s just flowing out of me, and lately, in the form of poems. It feels good. It feels good to be in this flow state, and I’m so grateful for it, because it may not last forever. A switch has been turned on, and at any second it could turn off - and that’s okay. I take advantage of the energy when it’s visiting.

Converting my thoughts to paper has been a tremendous way to lighten the pressure, and these little poems are serving me in a huge way. I go back to them whenever I need to remember. Remember I am whole, and complete, and not always in control.

I’d like to share some with you here.

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if i truly want

my outer reality

to reflect

my inner

i need to stop hiding

my transformations

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i am the key

i am the answer

i am the compass

and i am the navigator

it is all within me

and i have everything

i need

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remember

that small decisions

can have huge impact

small decisions

can open portals

small decisions

use my power

just like the big ones

and there is no need

to ignore

that power

in any of its forms

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i do not need to pretend

to be someone i am not,

to know something i don’t.

i also don’t need to pretend

to be anything less than i am,

to know less than i do.

insecurity is a guide

never a roadblock

navigating me to success.

insecurity is not there

to prevent me from being seen

but to remind me

that there is always more

to learn.

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my life is full

of surrender

of remembering

and forgetting

and remembering again

that though i do not know

where i am headed

or how i am getting there

i am on the way

and the way

is the whole point

each time my identity changes

is the point

each time i try something new

is the point

each time i forget

that i don’t need to be

a singular thing

and then remember

is the point.

each time i express myself

authentically

unapologetically

each time i feel love

and feel like i am love

is

the

point.

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These are the ones really hitting home for me right now, and each time I go back to them I feel myself soften just a little bit more. Like I’m holding space for what’s around the bend.

Keep an eye out for my next letter, take care, and as always...

...if you need me, come find me - I’ve gone gnomin’.

katelyn